Listen

Look up, at the sky

Count the infinites – in between

Take a breath

Realize mistakes

Go down

To the ground

Feel the cold earth

Wrap around

Pythonic rage

Eternal black

Ink, breaking

Hear the sounds around

Seeping into your brain

Trap, safe

Listen.

 

Hush

Bittersweet happiness.

Coursing through the veins of a broken doll.

The plastic shifting and splitting.

The world spinning and slitting.

Round and round and round.

Weeks of winter freeze.

Hearts stop.

Time goes by; vows to wait for no one.

Letting go of simplistic material.

Selecting what is wrong.

Hushing what is right.

Teal stars dot the infinity.

Eyes look for forgiveness.

Blue Adrenalized.

Vying for mercy.

Stone cold sun.

the frigid air biting the skin

Eternal Winter.

Pressing against the lips of beloved ones,

It speaks.

Hush.

 

Corrosive Feelings

Hi,

My life sucks sometimes. People annoy me,

“Are you dating this guy?”

“No.”

Especially in these situations. There is this one guy who is short and annoying as hell. He always accuses me of dating every single guy I talk to.

I just don’t enjoy have girls as my friends, they are too catty and will stab you in the back. Boys tend to be more outgoing, which is perfectly fine. Girls however, are silent. Silence is deadly.

I don’t understand why people think it is okay to talk shit about somebody, right in front of them. I wouldn’t be saying this if people didn’t do this to me. I don’t understand. Everyone thinks I’m nice, but I guess that is why they do this. Nice guys (girls) never win.

I selected this title because I have these kind of feelings. People just make me so angry, I don’t know why. I am a good person. I don’t enjoy being mean, but when I have to I will. Sometimes I want to go asleep and not wake up for a while. To see if people actually care. But who am I to say. Everyone knows nobody cares.

Alright. Time to talk about my day. Three words:

Awkward

As

Hell.

I don’t really want to talk about why because there is three reasons:

  1. You all probably don’t care. (see previous paragraph)
  2. People who shouldn’t be stalking me, are currently doing so and I don’t want them to know anything.
  3. I don’t feel like talking about it.

Anywho, how was your day? Comment below 🙂 I hope it was better than mine for sure! Oh well. Tomorrow will be great. Hope I made your day with posting twice. Haha! 😄

“Keep your eyes on the stars, and your feet on the ground.”

-Theodore Roosevelt

//girl in the corner

Clown Act

Hey everybody!

These past few days have been interesting. I don’t currently feel like writing a lot. It is also freezing in here.

Anyone else watch YouTube? I have been binge-watching Cheerleaders. Best series ever.

Clowns. Pretty much everyone in my school fits that category, which is extremely ironic considering all of this clown crap going on. It is honestly stupid and I am so done.

Adios for now, another post to come soon. And it will for sure have better content.

“Dreams are today’s answers to tomorrow’s questions.”

-Edgar Cayce

 

//girl over there

 

Daydreamers

Hey 🙂

Do you ever dream? I do. I dream of stuff I know will never happen, but sometimes it is kind of fun. For example, becoming rich. I already know the feeling of not being able to do much without feeling extremely guilty. I want to know the feeling of being able to buy something nice for myself and not feel like I am doing something wrong. Don’t we all though?

There is always a song playing through my head. It usually inspires me to do something in the world. I dreamt today in science that I could be somebody. Somebody people look  up to. But with all of this demeaning stuff I am currently experiencing, it is truly difficult. Words hurt.

I hate the saying “sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me,” I hate it a lot. People don’t realize what they are saying can hurt another person. For all of you guys out there, if you continuously say mean stuff to a girl it will eventually break her apart. It will make her question her every move. I am a easy forgive. I believe in second chances, if it is what is right for me. That is why I can’t stay mad very long on the outside. But on the inside I remember everything. It has gotten to the point where I break down every two months or so. Something little sets me off and every single bad emotion I have been feeling is released in a, sometimes violent, outburst.

Anyhow, my day was okay. I really liked my outfit today, which boosted my confidence. You know what they say, “Give a girl the right shoes and she can conquer the world.”

“Success is simple. Do what’s right, the right way, at the right time.”

-Arnold H. Glasow

 

//girl over there

Con Artist

Hey!

Good morning everybody. Hope your night was well, mine was good. I went to the fair with a group of friends, it was quite enjoyable. All of the food looked disgusting though, I was not in fact interested in gaining twelve pounds right before the peak in my soccer season. The rides looked very fun but overall more expensive than buying a brand new copy of FIFA 17. I think I know what I would choose there…

You are probably wondering about the title, ‘Con Artist’. I thought it was very clever because whenever I decided to write this post I was drawing in my notebook. I was also feeling very mischievous.  Anyone else have trouble with that word sometimes? I know I just did XD.

My Dad purchased me some books on Sunday. As of right now I am reading ‘Kiss the Girls’ by James Patterson. It is by far the creepiest book I have read in the Alex Cross series. Explains why I went to bed at midnight and woke up at 7:15, which is the time I usually leave my house for school.

Anyways, so far the day has been boring. I am just tired and I honestly want it to be the weekend already.

“Do not dwell on the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment.”

-Buddha

 

//girl over there

Ponytails from Hell

Hello.

Being a girl, doing hair is naturally very hard. Takes real strength. Holding your arms up for about 20 hours! (Not really but you get the gist.) Took me about 12 tries to get my ponytail to not look I just got back from running ten miles. Did it work? You may ask, and no, it still looked like crap.

Today was extremely weird, I woke up at an unreasonable hour, and I started my day off by rolling off my bed and hitting my head on the floor. If that doesn’t describe my life, I don’t know what will! I saw some people today I wouldn’t have dreamt of seeing in public. With their judgmental looks, and their fancy clothes. And here I am with a hole in my favorite pair of tennis shoes, and old camp shirt, and my mom’s Under Armour shorts that fit me a tad bit strange.

To conclude this strange day, it is only 5:00 and my day is already over. Nothing to do, nowhere to be, no-one to hang out with. Another sentence to describe my life. Comment below if you can relate (or not)! Anyways, I am sure something weird will happen to me later tonight so I shall write about it then. Adios!

“Always remember that you are absolutely unique, just like everybody else.”

-Margaret Mead

 

//girl over there

Spooky

Hello people:)

It’s practically the first day of October.

*puts on costume and runs around the room*

You guys know what this means….

FREE CANDY!

Hah. I hate myself XD.

Bullshit. Such a powerful word with a huge meaning. Some may call it crude? I just call it a way of life.

“Oh hey what did you do today?”

“Bullshit.”

“Did you learn anything?”

“Bullshit.”

“How is the weather?”

“Bullshit.”

You get my point. Continuing on, I honestly have nothing interesting to say. I will just keep rambling. Turns out I have to wake up at 6:00am tomorrow. Party! Sleep? Never heard of it. Or as I have been saying, bullshit. Oh what a time to be alive.

Enjoy the quote ☺️

“Behind every great man is a woman rolling her eyes.”

-Jim Carrey

 

//girl over there